Self-Criticism
I'm having one of those moments today where I'm completely criticizing everything I've done in my life to get to the point where I am now. It's distracting me for my work and I need to get it out of my brain so that I can continue and try to do better at this career. I imagine myself sitting on my grandparents dock after lake. A child. Innocent. Teenager, horny but not knowing what to do with life. Homeschooled, not understanding how the world works after being sheltered for so long. I depended on my adopted parents to help me figure out where I was going to go and what I was going to do with my life. But it's now clear that at 17 years old they had no idea what to do with me. They made a last-minute decision to throw me into the military even though I was sheltered, and had many unresolved emotional issues that they never had time to help me through. In the military I was scared, lost,...