My New Generation

It's come to my realization that I am the start of a generation. Being adopted has its complications. Now once the adopted person is raised and past 18 years old and they move out onto their own, the duty or responsibility is fulfilled so to speak by the people that adopted them. Those wonderful families that adopt a kid still love them and they will always be family, that's the beautiful part of it. My adopted family will always be my number one family and that's how I see it.

However, that being said digging into my past and trying to find my birth relatives I made the grizzly discovery that my birth parents had passed away long ago. So now my kids and I are really the only branch of this tree as a surviving generation. Normally kids can

go to their dad and look to see how life is done, the girls will look to their dad to see what kind of man to Mary, and the boys look to their dad to see what kind of man to be. And during family get togethers and reunions and other things throughout life the kids will also look to their grandparents and observe the fact that they are very similar in the whole family all the way up the chain. They can see that their dad does a lot of the same things that his mother and father do, their grandparents. They can observe the fact that their dad has some of the same qualities and says some of those same words or euphemisms or even have it says some of his siblings.

These are the things that mold a child's brain, they are the things that help shape who they are as a person in the future. My three beautiful children will not have that unfortunately. Both of my birth parents have passed as I said, and I was the only child they had together while they could not let go of their alcohol.

So now I am the start of an entire new generation, a new tree planted in the ground to start a new family tree in the future. I am that tree that starts it all and it starts with me. They have their mother's side which is great but when it comes to their dad's side it's all on me. This is giving me a large amount of responsibility as of lately, it's caused my brain to think clearly and deeply about all the responsibilities that have now been placed on my shoulders and to be honest they are very welcomed. I like these responsibilities I like the fact that I'm able to break the ugly chain that wants plagued my parents called alcoholism and many other things. That tree has been chopped down and burned for firewood and now me, the new tree will show my children what a beautiful world this is without all of that horrific background and depressing weaknesses.

Granted I do get some of my personalities rates from the people that adopted me but as I get older I am starting to see that it's less and less, there's only so far that nurture versus nature can go I think and eventually your nature takes over where nurture was holding the spot for a while. It's kind of a beautiful thing to see my brain and attributes start to mold and form into something very unique, so unique in this world that I'm not sure there's anything like me which is pretty much the entire point to this post. I am quite original, I am the only one to come out of the factory and the factory was burned down. And for that I hold myself responsible to be the most amazing person I can possibly be in this world so that my kids have something beautiful and fantastic to look up to as their dad.