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Welcome to my Existential crisis while I overthink everything. Rough breakdown of history in my brain From the dawn of man to the 1800s, people had to be so strong and sturdy and resilient against diseases, famine, animals, weather, and other people. You had to worry about sleeping in a log cabin, tent, cave or mud house with barely any heat or padding on your bed and possibly getting murdered by natives, animals or a conflict from another Nation. You had to know how to grow your own food, make your own medicine, hunt your own animals, be resourceful and walk through blizzards and sleep and live through horrible depressing moments in your life with no fake feelings therapy. There was no entertainment like we have now, our minds had to be occupied surviving. Hierarchies were being created. 1800s to the 1980s was just all creating, making, discovering, electricity, cars, lands, laws, it's like a weird moment between time where people were understanding law and not being able to just ...

     In the world of Scandinavia, it seems that they highly appreciate nature. Not only do they love nature but they know how to respect it. The Midwest in America is perfect in that sense.      We have about 4 months of a summer, 4 months of fall, and 4 months of winter. Speaking for mostly the central part of the Midwest, where I am, in Ohio, I feel like Scandinavians in general would absolutely love it here.  Oftentimes, in my research is Scandinavians I see that they vacation in Spain or move to Texas or Florida because they are so sick of not having any sunlight but then end up finding out that it's so much sunlight and so much heat , they quite literally get burnt out on it. Here in Ohio you would have the perfect amount of sunlight, even some sunlight during the fall and winter seasons. Granted we don't have vacations for the entire part of summer but if you gathered up your paid leave from your jobs, you could still take quite a lon...

It's come to my realization that I am the start of a generation. Being adopted has its complications. Now once the adopted person is raised and past 18 years old and they move out onto their own, the duty or responsibility is fulfilled so to speak by the people that adopted them. Those wonderful families that adopt a kid still love them and they will always be family, that's the beautiful part of it. My adopted family will always be my number one family and that's how I see it. However, that being said digging into my past and trying to find my birth relatives I made the grizzly discovery that my birth parents had passed away long ago. So now my kids and I are really the only branch of this tree as a surviving generation. Normally kids can go to their dad and look to see how life is done, the girls will look to their dad to see what kind of man to Mary, and the boys look to their dad to see what kind of man to be. And during family get togethers and reunions and...

  I like to see many views, not have tunnel vision, I found this pretty fascinating   😁 Did you know that when Einstein gave some lecture at the numerous US universities, the recurring question that students asked him was: Do you believe in God? And he always answered:..... "I believe in the God of Spinoza. The ones who hadn't read Spinoza didn't understand... I hope this gem of history, serves you as much as it does me: Baruch de Spinoza was a Dutch philosopher  🇳🇱  considered one of the three great rationalists of 17th-century philosophy, along with René Descartes in France, and Gottfried Leibniz in Germany. Here's some of his wisdom: God would have said in Spinoza's theory: Stop praying and punching yourself in the chest! What I want you to do is go out into the world and enjoy your life. I want you to enjoy, sing, have fun and enjoy everything I've made for you. Stop going to those dark, cold temples that you built yourself and say they are my house! My ...

  Abstract Despite centuries of research, much about the barbarian migrations that took place between the fourth and sixth centuries in Europe remains hotly debated. To better understand this key era that marks the dawn of modern European societies, we obtained ancient genomic DNA from 63 samples from two cemeteries (from Hungary and Northern Italy) that have been previously associated with the Longobards, a barbarian people that ruled large parts of Italy for over 200 years after invading from Pannonia in 568 CE. Our dense cemetery-based sampling revealed that each cemetery was primarily organized around one large pedigree, suggesting that biological relationships played an important role in these early medieval societies. Moreover, we identified genetic structure in each cemetery involving at least two groups with different ancestry that were very distinct in terms of their funerary customs. Finally, our data are consistent with the proposed long-distance migration from Pannonia ...

                   I'm having one of those moments today where I'm completely criticizing everything I've done in my life to get to the point where I am now. It's distracting me for my work and I need to get it out of my brain so that I can continue and try to do better at this career. I imagine myself sitting on my grandparents dock after lake. A child. Innocent. Teenager, horny but not knowing what to do with life. Homeschooled, not understanding how the world works after being sheltered for so long. I depended on my adopted parents to help me figure out where I was going to go and what I was going to do with my life. But it's now clear that at 17 years old they had no idea what to do with me. They made a last-minute decision to throw me into the military even though I was sheltered, and had many unresolved emotional issues that they never had time to help me through. In the military I was scared, lost,...